How?

How can I be the mother you want and need when nothing is the same?

How can I be your partner, when you continue to grip your past so intensely? 

How can I get back to normal, when all I’ve known is chaos and turmoil?

How can you love me, when you don’t know me?

How can I start to rebuild, when I don’t know where or how to start?

How do I make things better for you, when I don’t even know how to make them better for me?

How can you say you love me, when you don’t listen with your heart?

How can you be offended with a name, when it was you that called me an asshole?

How do I stop my mind from racing, when there is always so much at stake?

How do I stop the hurt inside, when I don’t know where it’s all coming from?

How should I apologize for changing, because my life has changed and I can’t be who I was?

Empty promises and broken dreams.

Scattered lives, ripped at the seams.

Waiting for me to try to act tough,

Ignoring until things got rough.

Now I have nothing left to give,

But I do have my life to live.

You do things you say for me, 

But it’s you who needs to want them,

What a shame that you don’t see.

While my heart was breaking,

When it was yours for taking,

You chose to be blind to what I had to say,

Chose to ignore the rope that began to fray.